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In Which I go On About School

Sep 18, 2009
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I'm not doing anything exciting other then school so guess what I'm going to talk about school! I know I'm just as excited as you are to hear about it! Let me begin with my correspondence class. It's a research methods class that I am required to take which by the way you can't get in to the actual class on campus unless you are a Psychology Major. I think it's silly to have class that's required that you can't even get in to with out a bit of trouble and so then have to fork out 900+ dollars for a correspondence course. It's all pretty much done online except the exams I have to go down there to take at allotted exam times. When I finally got all the stuff for it, it said that the lessons should each take 30 minutes only all the answers are given to you? How can each lesson take 30 minutes when I can read about 6 of the lessons in thirty minutes? I felt like I was missing something but no apparently not it's just that easy, which is good because I'm taking some other classes that aren't so easy.

The next class I'm taking is at 9:30 in the morning and it's pretty hard to get myself up to be there on time. Forutnatley the content is pretty interesting because it's a required class and this is *fingers crossed* hopefully my last semester in school so therefore I must take it now. The class is called Sociocultural Context of Development. So far we've learned a lot about how culture and ethnicity makes and helps us develop in to who we are as people. Yesterday we learned about the "I Self" and "Me Self" , Individualistic and Collectivistic cultures as well as Interdependent and Independent Cultures. We had to do this little mini project for Credit where we answered questions all about ourselves to see which category we fell in to. Next week is my first exam in the class and I'm pretty nervous about it because it's essay and I always get overly anxious about those kinds of exams, which actually I get overly anxious about exams in general this is just ten times worse!

My next class comes right after my first class and it's called Issues in Aging. We're basically learning about Gerontology. It's actually really interesting all though apparently once you hit 30 it's all down hill for the most part which is mildly depressing if you ask me as I am nearing it pretty quickly here. A few weeks ago we did this aging simulation where they aged all of us. They had put a string around our feet so that we had trouble walking, we had to put special glasses on to see what it's like to have cataracts, then we wore gloves and splints on our hands for arthritis, we put cotton balls in our ears as well as had to hear this tape recorded as though you had a hearing problem and lastly we all got a piece of chocolate but we had to plug our noses so that we had no sense of smell and therefor the chocolate didn't taste as good. Understatement it had no taste at all, I do not want to grow old! Oh well it's inevitable I have an exam in this class to next week and it's multiple choice with some short answer. I wouldn't be as nervous about this normally but it's on the same day as my other exam so basically I'm shaking with anxiety in my seat.

The third class I'm taking is Minds, Brains and Computers. I don't know how I got myself in to this class but it's a psychology/philosophy class heavy on the philosophy. Unfortunately I'm terrible in philosophy and I like to do Suduko during that class and think about what I'm going to get to eat for lunch because it's a 12:30 class and goes to 1:45. Fortunately there are only two exams where you have to answer one question and one paper I have to write. Don't ask me what it's about but for the most part think it is telling us about how the mind works a lot like a computer hence the name of the class.

Lastly I am taking Intro to Cognition which would be so much more interesting except that I already know half of what she's teaching. Plus in the beginning people would would sometimes get up and go out for a minute or leave early, as people generally do in ALL of my classes and she decided to point it out that that was distracting.to her. Then she decided that we all needed to e-mail her to let her know if are going to leave early and to do all our business before we go to class so that we won't be leaving in the middle of it. Normally this whole thing wouldn't bother me but now whenever anyone leaves she basically stops in the middle of lecture to point it out that she doesn't like it. I'm sorry but that's way more distracting then the person actually leaving. Let it go we're paying for the class in the first place.

After this I get to go home and fall flat on my face from exhaustion! Literally!

I've Come to Realize...

Aug 18, 2009
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1. I've come to realize that my chest-size...isn’t something I ever really cared about?

2. I've come to realize that my job...is something that I want to love doing

3. I've come to realize that when I'm driving...I really hate when people cut me off

4. I've come to realize that I need to take more time out...doing things that are fun and letting go

5. I've come to realize that I have lost...myself

6. I've come to realize that I hate it when...I let my insecurities get in the way of having fun

7. I've come to realize that if I'm drunk...I do stupid things but don’t most people?

8. I've come to realize that money...is something I would like to have but I don’t need to be rolling in it, just comfortable enough.

9. I've come to realize that certain people...will never change

10. I've come to realize that I'll always ..be semi anxious about everything

11. I've come to realize that my sibling(s)...are not just siblings but friends

12. I've come to realize that my mom..will always be over protective of me

13. I've come to realize that my cell phone...is something I can’t live without

14. I've come to realize that when I woke up this morning...that I didn’t really want to get out of bed

15. I've come to realize that last night before I went to sleep...I watched a lot of Friends which put me in a better mood

16. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking...too much

17. I've come to realize that my dad...will always drink my soda out of the fridge

18. I've come to realize that when I get on Facebook...I like reading everyone’s statuses

19. I've come to realize that today...could be a good day or a bad day either way I’m along for the ride

20. I've come to realize that tonight...will be lazy

21. I've come to realize that tomorrow...is just another day

22. I've come to realize that I really want to...be in love

23. I've come to realize that the person who is most likely to respond to this is....?

24. I've come to realize that life..is what you make it so let’s get it right

25. I've come to realize that this weekend..is my last weekend before school

26. I've come to realize that the music I listen to when I am upset...is really depressing

27. I've come to realize that my friends...have their faults but I’m glad they're in my life

28. I've come to realize that this year...has been interesting and I think I’ve changed somewhat

29. I've come to realize that my ex...isn’t important anymore

30. I've come to realize that maybe I should...stop shutting people out

31. I've come to realize that I have to....get stuff ready for school

32. I've come to realize that I don't understand...some things my friends do but they don’t understand things I do so it’s a nice balance

33. I've come to realize my past..was something I just needed to learn from and I need to move on now

34. I've come to realize that parties...are pretty fun when you’re in good company

35. I've come to realize that I'm totally terrified…of losing people in my life

36. I've come to realize that my life...could be a lot better if I had an income of sorts

37. I've come to realize that my favorite sound is...the ocean

Finding Nemo

Aug 3, 2009
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I'm doing my own project where I watch all my comfort movies before I go back to school at the end of August, which I'll be really busy sadly since I have to take four classes on top of a correspondence class. Should be interesting but on the plus side hopefully (fingers crossed) I'll be graduating in December!

The reason I started this project is because I'm pretty sure I'm going through a bout of depression right now and I need something to take my mind off it. I've been reading to but somehow movies have always been really comforting to me. So the first movie I decided to watch is Finding Nemo:

The Art of Finding Nemo

Mark Cotta Vaz

I saw this movie a few times in the theater and I loved it each time. I remember the first time I saw it, the part where Dory thinks she can speak whale just pretty much had me rolling in laughter. I still find the movie enjoyable and funny which is why it is a comfort movie for me. This movie reminds me of living in the condo with Summer and Chris. I use to sleep with my window open there because we were upstairs and my room was in the part that was gated off. My room had a little window seat that I use to like to sit in with pillows and read. I also would set my lap top up on it. There was one night that I was watching Finding Nemo on my lap top making screen captures when Summer came in and we ended up watching it all together with Kyle and his now ex-girlfriend. This for some reason really sticks out in my mind as a comforting night.

Another memory of this movie is that I went to Washington the summer it came out and two times Jennie and I tried to go see it. The first time we went we just ended up being to late and we saw something else. The second time we brought my other cousin Jay with me and it was opening day for Pirates of the Caribbean. So while we were waiting in line I turned to Jennie and said “I really want to see Pirates of the Caribbean”. To which she said “me to” and then we asked Jay if it was alright if we went to see it instead, and so we did, which was worth it btw. Finally we got to go see it together and so I associate this movie with that time to. Just getting to be with my family and friends is a real comfort to me.

July 19, 2009

Jul 19, 2009
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I got this in an e-mail and I really liked it and felt it came to me just when I needed it...

Happy moments, praise God
Difficult moments, seek God
Quiet moments, worship God
Painful moments, trust God
Every moment, thank God.

“Tears are words the heart can't express”

Jun 11, 2009
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Things I Want

Miley Cyrus tickets
Bad Girls Don't Die and the new Sarah Dessen Book Along for the Ride
Secret*
For everything to work out for everyone
To stop hurting - physically and mentally
Secret*
Secret*
For everyone to be happy
To be a different kind of person (but, only on days like this)
To read Harry Potter for the first time again
To have something of mine actually work out
To have small get togethers with friends where conversation ensues in the future when I have my own place.
To be able to go to the movies and scrapbook regularly with Dani
To always be able to visit Seattle, or some day live there
To have a child that will love me as much as the kids in my life love their parents.
The Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince and New Moon movie posters
To some day have a cozy home to live in.
To have a husband that puts up with me and knows that I can have insomnia so I'll stay up late reading or watching movies/the Disney channel.
A golden retriever (that won't scare Oliver!)
To have Confessions of A Shopaholic(it comes out June 23) and 17 Again(August 11) on DVD already
Built in bookcases
A spa
A long blue flow-y dress
To lose 10 or 15 lbs
To not wake up with migraines
To always know someone is going to be there for me (I know that there are people now..I just want to always know that and be secure in that knowledge)
To get in to graduate school when I'm done
To go to Disney World, The Harry Potter Theme Park, other places in the U.S. and Canada, most of Europe and Australia.
To laugh
A nice new camera like the Digital Rebel

* = I wrote this in my hand written journal and so the numbers that say "secret" on them are things that I feel are to personal to put out in to the world.

An update

Apr 27, 2009
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- I'm sick...ever since I went back to school I've been getting sick almost every two-three months....it's like my immune system hates me. Before school I only got sick once. My chest hurts and I have this terrible cough that keeps me up all night. I can't get out of bed.

- I took my niece to see The Hannah Montana Movie on Saturday, sick btw. I didn't care that I was sick because I wanted to see the movie and have some one on one time with my niece. And I was pleasantly surprised.

- I've been watching I Love Lucy on DVD.

- Zack got me the GQ with Zac Efron on the cover because I'm to sick to go get it myself. He apparently was embarrassed about buying it until I told him that GQ stands for Gentleman's Quarterly but I mean he has a point. How many girls do you think ran to the store to buy this magazine?

- I've been reading The Beekeeper's Apprentice by Laurie R. King which at first I had a lot of trouble getting in to but I now am finding it delightful.

- I'm almost done with the semester but I have to go to summer school so no need to get excited. Then I have to do a correspondence class but the good part is that I get to do it from the comfort of my Grandma's house in Washington! YAY!

- I wish I had the DVR in my bedroom so that I could watch the five episodes of Ghost Whisperer I have plus Supernatural, Dollhouse and Gossip Girl. P.S. Fringe is sooooooooooooooooo good. Harper's Island while not super good TV still addicting to me because it's amazingly cheesy and predictable and unfortunatley I like al that in a mini series/movie.

it's gonna be alright

Apr 22, 2009
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I think God has his reasons and that he basically has a plan for everyone. I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason to and I just have to have faith that things will work out and that I'll find my place in the world. That in that place I will find happiness.

I've been having a tough time lately, just a lot of blah and things annoying me. So here are things that I do appreciate in life or that make it ok for me to have to deal with the blah because sometimes honestly I feel like giving up.

- Amazon packages
- Happy hour with my mom
- Addison
- Having people that will listen to me vent
- Kelly Clarkson's All I Ever Wanted CD (let me tell you it's getting a lot of play time in my car and I love the lyrics)
- I Love Lucy on DVD
- Photography
- Lexulous on Facebook
- Getting B's on my Exams
- Being able to take my niece to see the Hannah Montana Movie on Saturday
- Happy Meals from McDonalds
- New Pink Ear buds for my ipod (my other ones broke which was a sad day indeed)
- My possessed lap top (the fan is making angry noises)

St. Patrick's Day a day late

Mar 18, 2009
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Do you like pina coladas and getting caught in the rain?

My mom and I went on a mini vacation last night for no reason at all. Well I'm on my Spring Break so I guess that is a reason. I'm to old to do that real spring break type stuff that all the college kids do so what we did was just shopped and then went to a fancy restaurant and stayed in a resort hotel. It was pretty fun and I got a couple of cute things (such as a dress, a pair of black pants and some capris)

I didn't want to tell you this in front of Patrick, but that hat makes you look like a girl.

Mar 8, 2009
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Little Girl Feet

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I watched Spongebob all night with that little girl.
I am tired from very many things and my eyes hurt from to much studying.
I am looking for something to complete me.
I am feeling uninspired to write anything and sometimes very alone.