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I got an 80 on one of my finals...giving me four freaking points away from getting an A in the class. FOUR POINTS! I have been obsessing about it all day.

I realized this week that I unconsciously like to ruin relationships (my own, possible or ongoing). I like to royally screw things up. Like if something good can happen in my life, I then decide that that's not good and I need to mess it up somehow. I don't even realize I'm doing it until it's to late. So either I think I don't deserve such goodness or I think I'm to damn scared to be that close to anyone. I honestly wish I knew what was wrong with me.

Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick,
and think of you
caught up in circles confusion--
is nothing new
Flashback--warm nights--
almost left behind
suitcases of memories,
time after--

sometimes you picture me--
I'm walking too far ahead
you're calling to me, I can't hear
what you've said--
Then you say--go slow--
I fall behind--
the second hand unwinds

chorus:
if you're lost you can look--and you will find me
time after time
if you fall I will catch you--I'll be waiting
time after time

after my picture fades and darkness has
turned to gray
watching through windows--you're wondering
if I'm OK
secrets stolen from deep inside
the drum beats out of time--

if you're lost

you said go slow--
I fall behind
the second hand unwinds--

if you're lost...
...time after time
time after time
time after time
time after time

Before you read this it's possible there are spoilers but not really because I don't really talk about what happened.

So after watching Cloverfield the following conversation happened.
Summer: Seriously?
Christa: No...Could someone...I mean what...
Summer: Was the point of that movie?
Christa: Yes!
Chris: I thought it was good but there's no closure.

I clicked over to the special features

Christa: Ohhh Alternate endings!

Watch Alternate endings (alternate ending one sucked) and then I discovered something from the second alternate ending.

Chris: Ok now we have to watch the ending the actually used to see if it's that scene

We did watch it again and lo and behold there it was..and it all made sense. Not really since there was still no closure but at least I saw the point of all those extra footage that was stuck through the film of some day on coney island.

Christa: I think this movie has to be watched again just to see if there was something we missed. Well at least it kept my attention the whole time.

They have now decided to send me Cloverfield

Why did they send me Gone, Baby Gone when Cloverfield is listed as my number one movie that I want and it says it's AVAILABLE! This is BS people, BS...I want Cloverfield!

Also I started reading all the Gossip Girl books and I can pretty much knock them out in one day. Only I don't have any money so I can't go to the store and buy them :o/ so I have to wait to get them at the library. It's agony, to have to wait!

Must go get Sarah Dessen's new book Lock & Key

Really wants to see Prom Night